Almost Thanksgiving Break!

I have two days of school then I am off for the rest of the week :) eeeekkkkk! I dont know what im going to do with all that time off!! Oh wait, yes I do, study study study. Oh fun. I have definitely caught up on a lot of sleep this weekend, thats good. I have been so exhausted for the past month. It has been too stressful! I have so much to study for, I am just ready to get my finals done with!
Ok enough with the depressing news, on a good note I heard from my Marine today :) Well not literally heard, lol, he wrote me on facebook :) He has NEVER wrote on my wall. Haha. I know thats not mandatory in a relationship, but it does have its perks. He cant get on chat because the internet is really crappy out where he is but he can see what I have wrote and he can write back, and he finally did! He also sent me a message ;) I love that man of mine!! This is what he wrote on my wall:

Hey you... Just to let you know..... I MISS YOU!!!!!! oh, yeah.... i love you too.. :)

Me:you just made me cry baby. This made my day, you thinking about me half way across the world. I love you with all my heart and i miss you MORE!!!!

Him:no way you miss me more. i'm stuck in a metal box 24/7, get meager servings of food, no cable, no radio, limmited internet, the slushy machine is broken, and the showers are always either ice cold or SCORCHING hot. and all i can think about is you. :) i miss YOU more.

Me: meehhhh mehhhh :) ( i hope you could visualize me saying that haha) Well if i could send you a care package a month i would! But im not the one making money lol. i do what i can but someone needs to let me know what they want!! But i just read your status so your next care package will be full of all sorts of food for you and the guys! promise. Your birthday/christmas box is already full :) How about we say we miss each other equally, except i miss you just a tad bit more? for many many many reasons ;)

So sweet sometimes ♥ And i wrote on his wall the other day about seeing Harry Potter (which was AMAZING) and that I wanted to call him and hear him laugh at me and tell me I am the biggest nerd ever. He wrote back saying "what a nerd.... but i still love you!" :) Oh i miss him sooooo much!!

This weekend has been so amazing and busy! I have spent a lot of time with my best friend/roommate Erica. She is the best!! Im actually waiting for her to get back from Chapter so we can have a pizza and watch a movie :) Im going to miss her so much when we go home for break, i definitely love her so much. She has been an amazing roommate!!! I hope that we stay life long friends for sure :)

SUPER SLACKER :/

Ugh. My life. So hectic. I have had blog withdrawl. I hate that i havent been able to tell about my life, cause its soooo interesting! haha. Anyways, let me finish my month worth of questions and then i will give a little update :)

Day 23: Something that makes me feel better

No matter what, Phillips smile can change everything around. His smile, his touch, even a song or sign that he is there with me is the best thing ever. I know he will always be there for me, and that I will always be able to depend on him. Other than him, Chocolate always works ;) haha

Day 24: Something that makes you cry

Death. The thought of death. I know thats so cliche, but I hate thinking that one day, I will not be here. I cant even begin to imagine what will happen after. I am a Christian and believe in God and heaven, but I just feel like I should be in this state forever. I know thats probably confusing, but I am scared of the unknown. Haha. And I am marrying into the Marines, the kings of hurry up and wait. Awesome :)

Day 25: A first

Im a perfectionist when it comes to schoolwork. I made straight A's in high school. But this one class, chemistry, I got my first C in. I was devastated. And now that im in college i get excited if i get a C. lol. I guess its just showing that high school really was a joke, and was not anything to prepare us for the real world.

Day 26: My fears

I fear death. Growing old alone. Car crashes. Lightning. People scaring me. Losing the one i love the most suddenly. Losing the ones i love. Running over an animal lol. Being attacked by myself. Being held captive. Getting lost. Not being accepted. Having people hate me. Divorce. Cheating. Being left for someone else. Phillip getting hurt.

Day 27: My favorite place

My first choice would have to be Phillips arms. I can feel his warmth while we are laying next to each other in bed just thinking about it. I cant wait for him to get back home from deployment so we can snuggle :) I promised him i would be the big spoon more often haha. When he isnt available I just wrap up in one of his shirts ♥

Day 28: Something that I miss

Phillip. I miss being able to see him all the time in school, but i dont miss all the drama we had in our first year and a half together. I would do anything to have him here right now, ugh i miss him :) He has my heart, and even though I only hear from him ever so often and he is halfway across the world, he still makes my heart swell when i hear his voice on the other side of that phone!

Day 29: Your aspirations

I want to finish school, soon!! haha. I am about burnt out on that! Got about a year and a half to two years left. Fingers crossed. I want to make something of myself. Even though Phillip wants to provide for us, I feel like I cant just sit back and do that. I want to get married to the man of my dreams, Phillip!!! I want to enjoy married life, and then have kids :) I want to have a great career as a vet tech and be a great mommy. I want to grow old with my man and raise great kids and watch them find their way. I want to be a great grandmother. I want to love Phillip as much as I do now when im 95 years old and I want him to think im still the most beautiful person :)



Day 30: One last moment

Saying goodbye to Phillip before he deployed. He was leaving to head back to NC on a Tuesday, but I have a full day of classes on Monday. Luckily my early morning class got cancelled. So I was able to see him one last time monday morning before i drove back. I got to his house around 8:15 in the morning. He was in the kitchen waiting for me. I walked in and gave him the biggest hug ever. I held him for a good 15 minutes, not wanting to let go. He kept telling me that I needed to go so i wouldnt be late to class, i had an hour drive back. I didnt want to leave, but i knew he was right. We kissed and he said goodbye and that he loved me. I told him i loved him too, so much, and i opened the door to walk out, turned around, waved and goodbye barely came out of my mouth. I closed the door and walked to my car. As i got to my car i heard the door open and close and I turned around to Phillip running after me with tears in his eyes. He gave me the biggest hug almost as if he didnt want to let go. He said I love you babe, Im going to come back for you. My heart melted. I love him so much. I miss you baby! ♥♥♥♥♥


So, school is super busy as usual because its almost finals!!!! I have to study for ALL of my classes during Thanksgiving break. That sucks! Got a call from Phillip on tuesday!!! First time i heard from him in three weeks!!! Gosh, time flies by so quickly its crazy. Almost three months down!!! I promise i will keep the blogging up!! promise promise promise!!!!

These are harder to keep up with than I thought!

Day 21: Another Moment

Phillips Boot Graduation. I remember getting out of school that tuesday after a test and rushing back to my apartment so I could meet my parents in Macon. I drove all the way to Parris Island where we met up with his parents!! I was so excited. They got to see him that day for Family Day and showed me all the pictures except for the one of him holding his graduation picture. He didnt want me to see that until he was able to show me himself. He was proud of himself :) and he was perfectly capable of doing that. He had accomplished something amazing! I did not sleep at all that night. I slept with my phone beside me texting anyone who was awake! haha. I just could not make myself go to bed. So i just laid their and tossed and turned until 4:30 when we all woke up. We all got ready, I wore a turtleneck sweater dress with leggings and heels. My hair looked great! Its super long, and straight. We all met downstairs with our signs that i made. They were in the shape of pacman and had writing on them. His initials are PAC. We got to the base and I was so excited!! I know a lot of girls know that amazing feeling :) I sat at the edge of the bleacher row we were in. His mom was sitting next to me, and I kept bouncing my leg up and down which was making a noise because of my heels. She had to grab my knee about 5 times before I finally stopped haha. They teased us with videos and all this talking and then finally they rolled in. I cried. haha. Finally, after the hour and a half ceremony they dismissed them. I was half way down the bleachers before the whistle finished blowing. I remember running down the stairs and walking through this mass of men in uniform looking for a glimpse of his smile, or anything to remember him by. Then I saw him. He was talking with a fellow Marine, and we both caught each other out of the corner of our eyes. I ran. That hug was the best thing ever. I absolutely loved it. He had changed so much. Really reserved. We took a lot of pictures and then he had to go get his stuff, he took me with him :) We walked with our arms linked. My mom got a picture of it :)

After getting his stuff he introduced me to one of his DI's. We then met up with his family and mine and walked to the car. I drove separately from my family so we could have some time together. We got in the car and I was turning the key to start it up, I looked over at him and he was right there, lol, ready to kiss me :) My phillip was back! We went back to the hotel to get our stuff and then we left for home. We were leaving the hotel, and I was driving again, and he looked at me, grabbed my leg and said that I looked beautiful. He said he got a lot of compliments about me when he was getting his stuff :) So sweet. We went out to eat, when really all he wanted to do was just get home. At lunch he had the biggest steak imaginable, and devoured it before i finished my five shrimp I had. haha. We left the restaurant and he said he was tired so I turned the radio down and let him sleep. That lasted about 30 min. i would look over at him, he looked so handsome. When he woke up he talked my ears off the whole way back! I loved every moment of it. He also stripped in my car, which my dad was driving in the car behind us. haha. He kept kissing my hand and saying he loved me. We got to his house, and his dog lucy was so excited to see him she literally peed all over the floor!! It was hilarious.

I just loved that moment of having him home. I knew that it wouldn't be for long, but I would cherish every moment that I could get. Thats what life is all about, the little things.

Day 22: Something that upsets you

Nothing ever really upsets me, but I really get upset when people get into others business. I hate when people cause unnecessary drama. I have dealt with it all through high school with girls trying to come between me and phillip, some were successful, but look where we are now, and since i have been in college, i have only had one problem. But that problem is gone now. Im usually a very positive person, and try and stay that way. So I dont need drama upsetting me.

Day 20: This month

November. Another month that will hopefully fly by! This is my last month in the semester!!! I have thanksgiving in florida to look forward to. I also have a three month down mark!!! it will mark a year since Phillip graduated boot. Thats just crazy! I just can't wait to spend thanksgiving with my family, but unfortunately i have to study for finals. yayyyyyy :( haha. that pretty much sums up this coming month. OH! It will also be our 3 year, 3 month anniversary :) Love you baby