Phone Calls...

may seem like an everyday thing to most people, but for me they mean so much more. Being separated by distance does not make a relationship easy, it adds challenges. I have been at college for two years now, and Phillip has been in the Marines for almost one year, so I thought that I might have the hang of this whole "separation anxiety". I have dealt with it rather well if i do say so myself, but sometimes i just want to pull my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs. I was so use to seeing him everyday, but now its normal to see him maybe once a month. And with him getting ready to deploy for 7 months in September, normal will soon become one phone call a month, if that. I am trying to persuade him to let me give him addressed envelopes with stamps and paper to get him to write to me when he leaves :) I think it worked. I am really lucky if I get to talk to him on the phone when he is not so busy, or to even get a "good morning text" at 4 in the morning. Those are the BEST. Those are what i check my phone every five minutes for. Haha. I know, i sound pathetic, but those thirty seconds or those thirty minutes mean everything. Now that he has a computer and access to the internet, we enjoy skype dates ♥ I love him with all my heart.



Coming from a military family, where all my uncles served, has prepared me, a little...I guess.....or so I thought. This past month has really been a test for the both of us. I visited Phillip for the July 4th weekend. When i got home I just got like one or two texts over the next week. I knew he was getting ready to go to ship for two weeks and that he was busy so I would just text back telling him how much I missed him and such, something I would hope he wants to hear. Then two weeks went by, no phone calls or texts, which i was prepared for. But during that I had a lot to think about. This is what I am going to have to deal with for the rest of my life: waiting. If you know me, I am not patient. At all. I have to prepare myself, become stronger than I could ever imagine, and just have faith. Faith that everything that is supposed to happen will happen. I always pictured myself having a husband who would be there all the time, who would go to bed beside me every night and be there in the morning when I woke up. I am not going to have that, at least for the time he is serving the military. I have come to realize that, for the first time, I am okay with that. I am willing to sacrifice these simple things for the one I love, while he is away sacrificing so much more. I could never put myself in his place. Knowing that he loves me in return just as much, or as he would like to put it "more", only makes it that much easier. I have an amazing fiancé, and the best family and friends I could ever ask for. I know they will be there for me, supporting me, while he is away. It's going to be hard to toughen myself up, but I can do it. If it means the difference between him fighting with no worries and fighting worrying about how i am doing and getting himself hurt, I sure as hell am going to kick butt at becoming strong. For him. For me.



Phillip called me the other night right when he got off ship to just tell me he loved me, he started the call by saying "is this the most beautiful girl in the world"; it was only a ten minute phone call but just the fact that he took time out to do it meant so much to me. Thats what we live for right, to find someone who completes us, and loves us for who we really are. He loves how dorky I am, the way I look in the morning after I wake up, the way I smile at him and make him smile back, the way I tell him that he doesn't laugh at any of my jokes only to have him say they weren't funny and then laugh at me anyways. But most of all, the way he loves me so unconditionally. We have both made our fair share of mistakes in the past, but yet we still have this love for one another that I cant really describe. And I know some people are going to doubt that, seeing as we are only 20, but I know it's real. It is so different from when we first started dating in high school and all the stupid drama that follows with that. Our love has grown so much deeper since then. We have both matured and realized that this is what we want, each other. We had our first skype date in months tonight and it was like we were sitting right next to each other, calling each other silly names and just talking about everyday things and of course he had to pick on me for the color of my rain boots i bought and the fact that I bought the Army Wives season one, "I'm a Marine, punkin." He just makes me so happy even when he is 400 miles away. I get butterflies everytime i see him. I am genuinely happy. I am in love.

I feel like Captain Jack Sparrow

Jamie and I went to Oconee River to have a picnic today. It was a ton of fun! I made us sandwiches and we had cheese, watermelon, peaches, crackers, and gummy worms. Delicious :) I loved spending time with my roommate. She is amazing. Whatever time we spend together, whether it be sitting on the couch relaxing, exercising, or even going to school, we never fail to have lots of laughter. I think thats how it should be. After eating we relaxed for a little and then decided to take a walk on the trails. We took a few pictures, as usual. Here are a few:







I have had a wonderful time back at the apartment and I am really not looking forward to going back home. Only a few more weeks and I will be back for good!!! Exciting! I will be traveling to Florida at the beginning of August for a huge family reunion. Pictures will definitely be in order. Here is one last picture that describes my relationship with my roommate flawlessly :) Enjoy!

Soon to be Mrs. Carver

I got engaged on May 7, 2010 to the most amazing guy i have ever met, Phillip. He came home to surprise his mom for mothers day and decided to give me a little surprise as well :) He said he had a present for me and pulled out these dog tags that said "Jessica Michele Simoneaux will you marry me May 7, 2010. So sweet. Of course i was completely surprised, the way I had always dreamed of, and said yes!!! We both love each others families, which is a huge plus! We are going to wait until after i graduate to marry, so it will be in about 2-2.5 years. He will have a good mind as to what he wants to do with his career as a Marine, and i will be looking/settling in to a job. I am beyond excited!!!!!!
Phillip is away training and I am currently looking for a job while waiting for school to begin again in August. I miss him a lot and I cherish every second i get to talk to him or every text i receive knowing that that might be it for a couple of weeks. I am trying to toughen myself up to become the part for this job, Marine Wife. I have never missed someone so much that it hurts. I am getting better though, I dont look at my phone every five minutes :)