I hope everyone had a great tThanksgiving!!! I had a long 6 hour drive to Florida on Thursday morning. On the way down, we stopped at a place that has been number one on my bucket list: Ben Hill Griffin Stadium ♥♥♥ It was a dream come true, too bad that there wasn't a game going on; I will just have to go back :) Here are a few pictures!

I was in Heaven :)

While in Florida I ate and ate and ate! I am surprised I'm not 20 million pounds heavier haha. I got a call from my baby for about 3 minutes. I told him to call his family instead of me, and he called them twice that day. I was kind of upset that day, but I did it to myself, so I am just going to have to get over it. I cried on the phone, I hope that didn't do anything on him choosing to call me. I hope he doesn't freak out and not call me again. My whole family went to Universal while I stayed at the lake house and studied chemistry for 6 hours. That was sooo much fun. NOT!

Now I am back at school, i have one more week full of finals !!! EEEKKK! Then I am going home for a month, and I already have that whole month full of events!! Im excited minus the fact that Phillip will not be here to spend it with me. Thanksgiving was hard enough!!! I did get a letter from him today though :) It was super cute and really sweet. I love that man!!!

Almost Thanksgiving Break!

I have two days of school then I am off for the rest of the week :) eeeekkkkk! I dont know what im going to do with all that time off!! Oh wait, yes I do, study study study. Oh fun. I have definitely caught up on a lot of sleep this weekend, thats good. I have been so exhausted for the past month. It has been too stressful! I have so much to study for, I am just ready to get my finals done with!
Ok enough with the depressing news, on a good note I heard from my Marine today :) Well not literally heard, lol, he wrote me on facebook :) He has NEVER wrote on my wall. Haha. I know thats not mandatory in a relationship, but it does have its perks. He cant get on chat because the internet is really crappy out where he is but he can see what I have wrote and he can write back, and he finally did! He also sent me a message ;) I love that man of mine!! This is what he wrote on my wall:

Hey you... Just to let you know..... I MISS YOU!!!!!! oh, yeah.... i love you too.. :)

Me:you just made me cry baby. This made my day, you thinking about me half way across the world. I love you with all my heart and i miss you MORE!!!!

Him:no way you miss me more. i'm stuck in a metal box 24/7, get meager servings of food, no cable, no radio, limmited internet, the slushy machine is broken, and the showers are always either ice cold or SCORCHING hot. and all i can think about is you. :) i miss YOU more.

Me: meehhhh mehhhh :) ( i hope you could visualize me saying that haha) Well if i could send you a care package a month i would! But im not the one making money lol. i do what i can but someone needs to let me know what they want!! But i just read your status so your next care package will be full of all sorts of food for you and the guys! promise. Your birthday/christmas box is already full :) How about we say we miss each other equally, except i miss you just a tad bit more? for many many many reasons ;)

So sweet sometimes ♥ And i wrote on his wall the other day about seeing Harry Potter (which was AMAZING) and that I wanted to call him and hear him laugh at me and tell me I am the biggest nerd ever. He wrote back saying "what a nerd.... but i still love you!" :) Oh i miss him sooooo much!!

This weekend has been so amazing and busy! I have spent a lot of time with my best friend/roommate Erica. She is the best!! Im actually waiting for her to get back from Chapter so we can have a pizza and watch a movie :) Im going to miss her so much when we go home for break, i definitely love her so much. She has been an amazing roommate!!! I hope that we stay life long friends for sure :)

SUPER SLACKER :/

Ugh. My life. So hectic. I have had blog withdrawl. I hate that i havent been able to tell about my life, cause its soooo interesting! haha. Anyways, let me finish my month worth of questions and then i will give a little update :)

Day 23: Something that makes me feel better

No matter what, Phillips smile can change everything around. His smile, his touch, even a song or sign that he is there with me is the best thing ever. I know he will always be there for me, and that I will always be able to depend on him. Other than him, Chocolate always works ;) haha

Day 24: Something that makes you cry

Death. The thought of death. I know thats so cliche, but I hate thinking that one day, I will not be here. I cant even begin to imagine what will happen after. I am a Christian and believe in God and heaven, but I just feel like I should be in this state forever. I know thats probably confusing, but I am scared of the unknown. Haha. And I am marrying into the Marines, the kings of hurry up and wait. Awesome :)

Day 25: A first

Im a perfectionist when it comes to schoolwork. I made straight A's in high school. But this one class, chemistry, I got my first C in. I was devastated. And now that im in college i get excited if i get a C. lol. I guess its just showing that high school really was a joke, and was not anything to prepare us for the real world.

Day 26: My fears

I fear death. Growing old alone. Car crashes. Lightning. People scaring me. Losing the one i love the most suddenly. Losing the ones i love. Running over an animal lol. Being attacked by myself. Being held captive. Getting lost. Not being accepted. Having people hate me. Divorce. Cheating. Being left for someone else. Phillip getting hurt.

Day 27: My favorite place

My first choice would have to be Phillips arms. I can feel his warmth while we are laying next to each other in bed just thinking about it. I cant wait for him to get back home from deployment so we can snuggle :) I promised him i would be the big spoon more often haha. When he isnt available I just wrap up in one of his shirts ♥

Day 28: Something that I miss

Phillip. I miss being able to see him all the time in school, but i dont miss all the drama we had in our first year and a half together. I would do anything to have him here right now, ugh i miss him :) He has my heart, and even though I only hear from him ever so often and he is halfway across the world, he still makes my heart swell when i hear his voice on the other side of that phone!

Day 29: Your aspirations

I want to finish school, soon!! haha. I am about burnt out on that! Got about a year and a half to two years left. Fingers crossed. I want to make something of myself. Even though Phillip wants to provide for us, I feel like I cant just sit back and do that. I want to get married to the man of my dreams, Phillip!!! I want to enjoy married life, and then have kids :) I want to have a great career as a vet tech and be a great mommy. I want to grow old with my man and raise great kids and watch them find their way. I want to be a great grandmother. I want to love Phillip as much as I do now when im 95 years old and I want him to think im still the most beautiful person :)



Day 30: One last moment

Saying goodbye to Phillip before he deployed. He was leaving to head back to NC on a Tuesday, but I have a full day of classes on Monday. Luckily my early morning class got cancelled. So I was able to see him one last time monday morning before i drove back. I got to his house around 8:15 in the morning. He was in the kitchen waiting for me. I walked in and gave him the biggest hug ever. I held him for a good 15 minutes, not wanting to let go. He kept telling me that I needed to go so i wouldnt be late to class, i had an hour drive back. I didnt want to leave, but i knew he was right. We kissed and he said goodbye and that he loved me. I told him i loved him too, so much, and i opened the door to walk out, turned around, waved and goodbye barely came out of my mouth. I closed the door and walked to my car. As i got to my car i heard the door open and close and I turned around to Phillip running after me with tears in his eyes. He gave me the biggest hug almost as if he didnt want to let go. He said I love you babe, Im going to come back for you. My heart melted. I love him so much. I miss you baby! ♥♥♥♥♥


So, school is super busy as usual because its almost finals!!!! I have to study for ALL of my classes during Thanksgiving break. That sucks! Got a call from Phillip on tuesday!!! First time i heard from him in three weeks!!! Gosh, time flies by so quickly its crazy. Almost three months down!!! I promise i will keep the blogging up!! promise promise promise!!!!

These are harder to keep up with than I thought!

Day 21: Another Moment

Phillips Boot Graduation. I remember getting out of school that tuesday after a test and rushing back to my apartment so I could meet my parents in Macon. I drove all the way to Parris Island where we met up with his parents!! I was so excited. They got to see him that day for Family Day and showed me all the pictures except for the one of him holding his graduation picture. He didnt want me to see that until he was able to show me himself. He was proud of himself :) and he was perfectly capable of doing that. He had accomplished something amazing! I did not sleep at all that night. I slept with my phone beside me texting anyone who was awake! haha. I just could not make myself go to bed. So i just laid their and tossed and turned until 4:30 when we all woke up. We all got ready, I wore a turtleneck sweater dress with leggings and heels. My hair looked great! Its super long, and straight. We all met downstairs with our signs that i made. They were in the shape of pacman and had writing on them. His initials are PAC. We got to the base and I was so excited!! I know a lot of girls know that amazing feeling :) I sat at the edge of the bleacher row we were in. His mom was sitting next to me, and I kept bouncing my leg up and down which was making a noise because of my heels. She had to grab my knee about 5 times before I finally stopped haha. They teased us with videos and all this talking and then finally they rolled in. I cried. haha. Finally, after the hour and a half ceremony they dismissed them. I was half way down the bleachers before the whistle finished blowing. I remember running down the stairs and walking through this mass of men in uniform looking for a glimpse of his smile, or anything to remember him by. Then I saw him. He was talking with a fellow Marine, and we both caught each other out of the corner of our eyes. I ran. That hug was the best thing ever. I absolutely loved it. He had changed so much. Really reserved. We took a lot of pictures and then he had to go get his stuff, he took me with him :) We walked with our arms linked. My mom got a picture of it :)

After getting his stuff he introduced me to one of his DI's. We then met up with his family and mine and walked to the car. I drove separately from my family so we could have some time together. We got in the car and I was turning the key to start it up, I looked over at him and he was right there, lol, ready to kiss me :) My phillip was back! We went back to the hotel to get our stuff and then we left for home. We were leaving the hotel, and I was driving again, and he looked at me, grabbed my leg and said that I looked beautiful. He said he got a lot of compliments about me when he was getting his stuff :) So sweet. We went out to eat, when really all he wanted to do was just get home. At lunch he had the biggest steak imaginable, and devoured it before i finished my five shrimp I had. haha. We left the restaurant and he said he was tired so I turned the radio down and let him sleep. That lasted about 30 min. i would look over at him, he looked so handsome. When he woke up he talked my ears off the whole way back! I loved every moment of it. He also stripped in my car, which my dad was driving in the car behind us. haha. He kept kissing my hand and saying he loved me. We got to his house, and his dog lucy was so excited to see him she literally peed all over the floor!! It was hilarious.

I just loved that moment of having him home. I knew that it wouldn't be for long, but I would cherish every moment that I could get. Thats what life is all about, the little things.

Day 22: Something that upsets you

Nothing ever really upsets me, but I really get upset when people get into others business. I hate when people cause unnecessary drama. I have dealt with it all through high school with girls trying to come between me and phillip, some were successful, but look where we are now, and since i have been in college, i have only had one problem. But that problem is gone now. Im usually a very positive person, and try and stay that way. So I dont need drama upsetting me.

Day 20: This month

November. Another month that will hopefully fly by! This is my last month in the semester!!! I have thanksgiving in florida to look forward to. I also have a three month down mark!!! it will mark a year since Phillip graduated boot. Thats just crazy! I just can't wait to spend thanksgiving with my family, but unfortunately i have to study for finals. yayyyyyy :( haha. that pretty much sums up this coming month. OH! It will also be our 3 year, 3 month anniversary :) Love you baby

Happy Halloween

I hope everyone had a wonderful day!!! I stayed inside and watched movies all day :) Missing my baby!!!

Day 17: My favorite memory

My favorite memory would have to be when Phillip proposed to me :) He was coming home to "surprise" his mom for mothers day, and just plain surprise me; but he is a bad bad badddd surpriser. hahaha. His mother and I both knew he was coming home because he kept asking me what I was going to be doing that weekend, and he told his mom that she would be getting a mothers day present around 8 at night on friday. Mail does not come at 8 at night babe!!!! haha. So i waited all day, super excited, and it was about 8:30 when i went to go see my mom in her room and i told her, " i dont think he is coming, i got myself excited for nothing". She told me the night wasn't over yet, so I went to sit back down in the living room. I sat down on the couch only to see a car pulling up in the driveway and the lights being turned off. My heart was just a pounding away. I was like OMG!!!! He rang the doorbell and I about broke the door down and jumped on him! I think I elbowed him in the chin. Oops. We hugged for the longest time, and then i got down and we walked in the house. My dad was lying on the floor and was about to go run to his room to get a gun because I screamed so loud when i opened the door. haha. We sat in the living room and talked for a while, then my mom said I should show him her new car. So we walk out to the garage and he shoved me outside instead of going to look at the car. I could not stop smiling and touching his arms just to make sure this was real. I had missed him so much!! This is how our conversation went:

Phillip: I got you a present.
Me: Yeah, you came home!
P: no, i got you some dog tags
M: oh, okay, do they have your name on them?
P: no, they have your name on them
M: (in my head im like, why do i need dog tags with my name on them?) hahaha
P: here, read them
M: "Jessica Michele Simoneaux..."
*mom opens garage door to come ask what he thinks of the car and looks shocked and about to cry*
M: (what is she crying about, she cant even see what i have in my hands, i turn back around to face Phillip while reading the rest) ... Will you marry me May 7th, 2010. (Phillip is on his knee)

I am in so much shock that I cant even get a tear out!! I had absolutely no clue this was happening!!! I had just gotten out of the shower like an hour ago, and was in shorts and one of his t-shirts! Honestly, the sweetest moment ever. I love my Marine, he is my everything. Later that night, we went to his house to show his family. I asked him if he was nervous at all, and he said when he bought the ring he was cool, but when he got the dog tags made he got a little nervous, like man this is it. And then on the 8 hour drive home he said his heart was just a racing the whole time. I love you Phillip ♥ Best day and memory I will ever have, until the day of my wedding and see Phillip cry of course :)

Day 18: My favorite Birthday

That would have to be this past birthday, my 20th. I spent it in Orlando and went to the opening of The Wizarding World of Harry Potter :) Yes, I am the biggest dork ever, and I LOVE it :) The only downfall was that Phillip forgot about my birthday, he claims that he lost track of the days because he had been out in the field, it hurt, but its long gone now.

Day 19: Something I regret

This is only known by Phillip and myself. It was in the past, and it is all over with. I love Phillip for him and he loves me for me. Thats all that matters :)

Day 16: My first kiss

Well, honestly, I dont really remember if i had a "first kiss" before Phillip. I know, lame. There i was 17 and never had a kiss. There ya go. I admitted it. But I do remember my first kiss with Phillip. haha. I think we went about two weeks before we had our first date, and all we did was hug each other. lol. It was on our first date that we shared our first kiss together. I went to his house and of course my dad stayed with me until his parents got home, lol. We were going to watch Lord of the Rings, but then he started quoting EVERY word, and I said no way are we watching this. hahaha. We ended up watching Kingdom of Heaven. It was a really good movie, from what i remember ;) haha I love you baby ♥ And I miss you like crazy!!!!

Long time no see...

and I am superrrrrrr sorry. Chemistry has been keeping me so busy that I feel like i have no social life, oh wait, i really don't haha. Phillip is doing really well. I miss him like crazy. TWO MONTHS DOWN LADIES ♥ !!!!! I am so beyond happy! The only bad thing right now is just school. I am so ready to graduate, but it might take me another semester or year. As long as I graduate before I am 25 I think I will be fine. lol. I am pretty sure 22 or 23 is when it will happen. Hopefully!! *Fingers crossed* So here are my 3029493857943875 days i have missed!

Day 3: What makes me different?

Hmm... I would think that the quality that makes me different would have to be my sense of positivity. I always try and see the positive in any situation. I know that something bad could go wrong, such as with Phillip being deployed, or something delaying me graduating from college, but I take one day at a time, and I am okay with that.

Day 4: What you ate today

Well, I had a strawberry crunch yogurt for breakfast with some double chocolate cream coffee from the "Two Sons" (aka Paula Deans Store). For lunch i had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (old school, i know, but it was so delicious!!) And for dinner my dad came into town and took me to Ihop :) I love my daddy.

Day 5: My definition of love

I think love is being with another person of the opposite sex that you can be your absolute self around and love someone and be loved by someone for yourself, not who you pretend to be. I know when I am with Phillip I am like butter. lol. Because every time I see him it's really like seeing him for the first time all over again. Every time. I can tell him anything and know he won't judge me for it. We have definitely had our share of hard times, but through those we realized how much love we truly have for one another. I know he loves me when I have no make up on and in sweat pants and one of his jerseys. That's his favorite. I know he loves me when I dress up for a date. I know he loves me when I nag at him for playing video games all the time. I know he loves me when I am crying, and yes, he has told me I look absolutely adorable when I cry, of course thats when I have to leave him to go back home, and then I have had an ugly cry, when I was sitting in my living room with him and found out that my grandma died. He has been there for me. Always. I know he loves me when i complain because he just sits there and lets me rant and rave and then ends up smiling at me for being so cute. I know he loves me when we are out in public he kisses me every chance he gets, on the forehead is my favorite. I know he loves me because he holds my hand or whispers sweet things to me while we are sitting next to each other or out to eat. I know he loves me because he loves the way I look, no weight needed to be gained or lost. I know he loves me because he tells me every chance he gets. I have found the definition of true love <3

Day 6: Your day

My day has been very uneventful. I have had classes all day. I have to study for my chem test on friday. I have cleaned my room and my roommate had to dress up as Pocahontas to go trick or treating for cans. She looks exactly like her. lol.

Day 7: My best friend

That would have to be Erica. She has been my roommate since freshman year. We have had a rough patch, but we are way beyond that. I couldn't imagine having anyone else as a roommate. I have never grown tired of her. I used to not like her first year because I judged her and thought she was really preppy and not compatible with me. lol. But we are literally twins. haha. We just have a lot in common. I love that girl. She is going to be a long time friend.

Day 8: A Moment

My moment that will always be in the back of my mind would have to be when Phillip asked me out. A bunch of people in band told me that he was thinking about asking me out and i was freaked out!!! haha. I was like why in the world is this guy asking ME out??? I was so nervous and paranoid at like every practice. And then one thursday night, I was rushing to get out of the guard room and all the girls left, and in walks Phillip, all smiles, rubbing his hands together as if he was nervous. In my head I was like oh shit!! I didnt get out in time. haha. He came up to me, smelly as all get out from practice, and was like "hey, how are you?" And i was like "im good how are you?" " I am fine, I have a question for you?" "What is it?" "Would you want to be my girlfriend?" "uh yeah" hahahaha thats how i remember it at least. I was sooooo nervous. He was so cute. But why the hell was such a handsome guy asking such an average girl out?? He claims that I am beautiful, and that I am the only girl besides the ones in his family that has stood behind him and encouraged him in everything he has done. Thats why :)

Day 9: My beliefs

I believe in God. I am a Catholic born and raised. I am not a devout Catholic, but I do have a lot of faith. I dont like how everyone perceives Catholics as a bad religion, we believe the same things as you. We get called cannibals and vampires because we drink the blood and eat the body of Christ every Sunday. UM HELLO!!! All other religions do it as well, but only every once a month or so. I stand behind my religion and all our beliefs. I am a big non believer in divorce though. I know that as long as I live my life the way God intended and spread his word that I will enter into the gates of heaven.

Day 10: What I wore today

I wore a pair of shorts, my gray marine tshirt, and a black cover over, dangle earrings, and jeweled sandals. And of course on my finger was my engagement ringggg :)

Day 11: My siblings

I have one brother. He is 17. We have never really gotten along too well, but I do love him. I wish him the best in life, even though its been rough. He is going to do great things in the Coast Guard.

Day 12: Whats in my bag

My bookbag: chem book, notebook, calculator, goggles for lab, pens, pencils, and most importantly: my inhaler. lol
My purse: too much crap. lol. wallet, checkbook, papers, chapstick, ipod, pens, hand sanitizer, spare key

Day 13: This week

This week is going to be crazy. I have a chem test and a spanish test. Lots of studying to do. And I miss my man

Day 14: What I wore today:

I wore jeans, tennishoes, and my senior shirt because I had to wear closed toed shoes for lab.

Day 15: My dreams

Finish College, Get married to Phillip, Get a job, Enjoy married life, Have kids, Be the best mom I can be, be successful with my career and make great money, but most of all, i want to grow old and happy with the love of my life, be loved forever, and support him in everything he does.

Day 2: My First Love

Hmmm... My first love would have to have been in second grade. lol. Nick Rebuelta. He was tan and cute. haha. He dedicated a song to me at the school talent show. He was all dressed up in his cowboy boots, jeans, a button down shirt, and the cowboy hat. It was adorable. My next love didnt come till 8th grade. Dontavious Ellis. That didn't last very long. My first true love would have to be with Phillip. He was my first real boyfriend, my first everything. I love that man to death. We met when i was in 11th and he was in 10th. We were both in band but we never talked to each other until the summer before my senior year started. All the girls on guard would swoon over him and I was always like, what do you see in him? He is just the most popular and handsome guy in the band. I would never date him. Haha, you see where that got me :) The band went on a trip to six flags and we met in the band room. I had just got my hair cut the day before, I got side bangs, and his first words to me were "Did you get your hair cut? It looks really good like that." We talked on the bus, and when we got to six flags we some how got separated from our group so it was just me, him, and his dad, lol, who was a chaperone. We were together ALL day and talked about everything. A couple of weeks later he asked me out :) I still have the first voicemail he ever sent me. It was from the first day of school, he was saying how he didn't know if i was there or not, but he missed me. That was a week before we started dating. I remember seeing that different number pop up on my phone and thinking oh crap, I bet thats him cause I had given my number out to a bunch of my friends and he just happened to be hanging around. Don't answer!!! He asked me out in the guard room. I remember trying to get my stuff and go as quick as possible because I had heard he was going to ask me out. I was such a dork, still am!!! To this day he still gives me the butterflies. I even get them if I get a phone call from him, but maybe that's just because he is thousands of miles away. Gosh, I miss him

Day 1- Introduce Yourself

Hello! Im Jessica. I am 20 years old and a junior in college working on a biology degree. I know everyone says this, but I have the best family and friends! They have always been there for me. I have the most amazing parents, and a younger brother who is a pain sometimes. I come from a small family, so we are all really close. School is a huge stress right now, I am just ready to get out!!! haha. My fiancé Phillip just deployed with the Marines at the end of August. This is our first deployment, so it should be interesting. We have been together for 3 years and almost 2 months. We just recently got engaged in May :) I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with him!!! These three years have taught me so much about myself and the love I have for him. I know this almost year-long deployment will only allow our love to grow even deeper. He has been in for one year already! It's crazy thinking about how fast time has flown by. The distance between GA and NC has only helped us learn more about each other. I will definitely be keeping an update on how everything is going!!! That is basically my life right now. I am really focused on school so I can graduate and move to NC to be with my Marine :) If you have any other questions, just ask <3

... of a very long first deployment

It has been quite a while. A lot has happened in the last month. Phillip was going to start pre-deployment leave and be home for two weeks, but no... the Marines had to leave a whole month in advance. I went to visit him for a last weekend/mini-vacation before he came home for one last weekend. It was wonderful. Very peaceful, and relaxing, and it just happened to be on our 3 year anniversary. He had to travel back and forth to work everyday, but the time i spent with him was well worth it. It was nice to have just one more weekend to ourselves before all the madness of him leaving began. Here is us at the beach :)



The next weekend his family had a HUGE party for him. If you knew his family you wouldn't expect anything less. I love that family! There was a low country boil, and lots of corn hole. I spent the whole day on Sunday with him, or should I say I probably pushed myself onto him all day. I just didn't want him out of my sight, is that too much to ask?!?! This first deployment is a really big step for both of us. So on Monday morning I had to drive back to school. He was leaving for NC on tuesday so he told me to stop by his house on my way out. I stopped by and went inside for about 15 minutes. I just hugged him like I was never going to let go and cried like crazy. He kept pushing me to go to school because he didn't want me to be late, but I knew he wanted to make this as painless as possible. I hugged him one last time, and kissed him, and said I love you baby. I walked out the garage door and turned to close it and goodbye barely came out of my mouth and I waved. As I was walking to my car I heard the door open and turned around and he was running after me with tears rolling down his face. Sweetest thing ever, but I hated to see him cry. I want him to know that i can be strong for him, but tears are one of my releases. I feel so much better afterwards. He gave me the biggest hug ever and kissed me and told me he was coming back for me and that he loved me so much. I miss him so much just thinking about that moment :)


The last phone call I had was last Monday. And then I got a surprise text yesterday!!! I have been occupying my mind with my busy busy school schedule. Trying to keep my mind on other things, but he is always in my mind. Phillip wants me to wear a yellow ribbon in my hair. Im not a huge ribbon wearer, but I plan on it. Then i thought of this great idea, and made my roommate Jamie make it :)


Im trying to keep my head up and just rely on my Faith. Thats what will get me through anything, as well as knowing that he is going to be home soon, even though a year is a long time. We can do it :) Semper Fi baby!

Phone Calls...

may seem like an everyday thing to most people, but for me they mean so much more. Being separated by distance does not make a relationship easy, it adds challenges. I have been at college for two years now, and Phillip has been in the Marines for almost one year, so I thought that I might have the hang of this whole "separation anxiety". I have dealt with it rather well if i do say so myself, but sometimes i just want to pull my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs. I was so use to seeing him everyday, but now its normal to see him maybe once a month. And with him getting ready to deploy for 7 months in September, normal will soon become one phone call a month, if that. I am trying to persuade him to let me give him addressed envelopes with stamps and paper to get him to write to me when he leaves :) I think it worked. I am really lucky if I get to talk to him on the phone when he is not so busy, or to even get a "good morning text" at 4 in the morning. Those are the BEST. Those are what i check my phone every five minutes for. Haha. I know, i sound pathetic, but those thirty seconds or those thirty minutes mean everything. Now that he has a computer and access to the internet, we enjoy skype dates ♥ I love him with all my heart.



Coming from a military family, where all my uncles served, has prepared me, a little...I guess.....or so I thought. This past month has really been a test for the both of us. I visited Phillip for the July 4th weekend. When i got home I just got like one or two texts over the next week. I knew he was getting ready to go to ship for two weeks and that he was busy so I would just text back telling him how much I missed him and such, something I would hope he wants to hear. Then two weeks went by, no phone calls or texts, which i was prepared for. But during that I had a lot to think about. This is what I am going to have to deal with for the rest of my life: waiting. If you know me, I am not patient. At all. I have to prepare myself, become stronger than I could ever imagine, and just have faith. Faith that everything that is supposed to happen will happen. I always pictured myself having a husband who would be there all the time, who would go to bed beside me every night and be there in the morning when I woke up. I am not going to have that, at least for the time he is serving the military. I have come to realize that, for the first time, I am okay with that. I am willing to sacrifice these simple things for the one I love, while he is away sacrificing so much more. I could never put myself in his place. Knowing that he loves me in return just as much, or as he would like to put it "more", only makes it that much easier. I have an amazing fiancé, and the best family and friends I could ever ask for. I know they will be there for me, supporting me, while he is away. It's going to be hard to toughen myself up, but I can do it. If it means the difference between him fighting with no worries and fighting worrying about how i am doing and getting himself hurt, I sure as hell am going to kick butt at becoming strong. For him. For me.



Phillip called me the other night right when he got off ship to just tell me he loved me, he started the call by saying "is this the most beautiful girl in the world"; it was only a ten minute phone call but just the fact that he took time out to do it meant so much to me. Thats what we live for right, to find someone who completes us, and loves us for who we really are. He loves how dorky I am, the way I look in the morning after I wake up, the way I smile at him and make him smile back, the way I tell him that he doesn't laugh at any of my jokes only to have him say they weren't funny and then laugh at me anyways. But most of all, the way he loves me so unconditionally. We have both made our fair share of mistakes in the past, but yet we still have this love for one another that I cant really describe. And I know some people are going to doubt that, seeing as we are only 20, but I know it's real. It is so different from when we first started dating in high school and all the stupid drama that follows with that. Our love has grown so much deeper since then. We have both matured and realized that this is what we want, each other. We had our first skype date in months tonight and it was like we were sitting right next to each other, calling each other silly names and just talking about everyday things and of course he had to pick on me for the color of my rain boots i bought and the fact that I bought the Army Wives season one, "I'm a Marine, punkin." He just makes me so happy even when he is 400 miles away. I get butterflies everytime i see him. I am genuinely happy. I am in love.

I feel like Captain Jack Sparrow

Jamie and I went to Oconee River to have a picnic today. It was a ton of fun! I made us sandwiches and we had cheese, watermelon, peaches, crackers, and gummy worms. Delicious :) I loved spending time with my roommate. She is amazing. Whatever time we spend together, whether it be sitting on the couch relaxing, exercising, or even going to school, we never fail to have lots of laughter. I think thats how it should be. After eating we relaxed for a little and then decided to take a walk on the trails. We took a few pictures, as usual. Here are a few:







I have had a wonderful time back at the apartment and I am really not looking forward to going back home. Only a few more weeks and I will be back for good!!! Exciting! I will be traveling to Florida at the beginning of August for a huge family reunion. Pictures will definitely be in order. Here is one last picture that describes my relationship with my roommate flawlessly :) Enjoy!

Soon to be Mrs. Carver

I got engaged on May 7, 2010 to the most amazing guy i have ever met, Phillip. He came home to surprise his mom for mothers day and decided to give me a little surprise as well :) He said he had a present for me and pulled out these dog tags that said "Jessica Michele Simoneaux will you marry me May 7, 2010. So sweet. Of course i was completely surprised, the way I had always dreamed of, and said yes!!! We both love each others families, which is a huge plus! We are going to wait until after i graduate to marry, so it will be in about 2-2.5 years. He will have a good mind as to what he wants to do with his career as a Marine, and i will be looking/settling in to a job. I am beyond excited!!!!!!
Phillip is away training and I am currently looking for a job while waiting for school to begin again in August. I miss him a lot and I cherish every second i get to talk to him or every text i receive knowing that that might be it for a couple of weeks. I am trying to toughen myself up to become the part for this job, Marine Wife. I have never missed someone so much that it hurts. I am getting better though, I dont look at my phone every five minutes :)